Dear Fabi

Today is your big day. You’re graduating from high school. It’s a day that you’ve been looking forward to with mixed feelings, but I hope that happiness and excitement are what you feel today.

When I graduated three years ago, you gave me a t-shirt that you had spent all your pocket money on, just because you thought I’d like it. You didn’t care about the money even though you didn’t have a lot. You wanted to put a smile on my face and you did – you’ve put so many smiles and laughs on my face, every day. So now, as you’re about to step into the world of freedom and self-determination, I’ve thought about what I could give you in return. As much as we both wish that I could give you us a new kite, we both know that my bank account doesn’t allow an investment of that kind at the moment. (There are better times ahead, I promise!)

So I figured that if I can’t buy you a kite, I cannot buy you anything that would resemble what I would really like to express. This is what I came up with instead.

Do you remember when we were little and we were bickering on your bed? I accidently hit your nose and it started bleeding like it always did and you started crying and mum came running into the room and she sent me to my room, where I had to sit for what felt like hours and think about what I had done. I thought it was so unfair. Mainly because you got nosebleeds all the time and I had probably barely touched your face, and also because you’d had your fair share of provoking me as well.

Or that other time when we were alone at home and you got bored and started to play soccer inside the house and I told you to stop, but you didn’t? You found it hilarious to kick the ball against the door to my room and laughed harder each time I attempted to yell at you. I was so upset and annoyed back then, but when I think about it now all I can do is laugh. Life wouldn’t have been the same without these little moments that have become great memories.

We’ve definitely had our moments, but we’ve never stopped being us. You are the first person I turn to when I need to talk, and even though your advice on layout sucks (“It kinda looks the same to me, I really don’t know”), I would always consider you a good listener. You are my rock – through the good times and the bad, the happy moments and the sad.

Today is your day. Enjoy this beautiful moment and remember that it’s just the beginning – you have such an incredible time ahead of you. So many things are about to happen. You’re going abroad by yourself for the first time. I know that it’s a big step. I know you might feel like you’re going up and down the emotional roller coaster as soon as you think about it. I know that you can do it though – I would never let you go if I didn’t know that you could do it – and I know that you will have such a great time. Some steps and turns might change along the way, but your experience will be amazing either way. It’s fascinating how these things always find their way to turn out all right, don’t you think? For now, I hope you can lean back and enjoy the ride.

I will miss you – you have no idea how much I’ll miss you! But I am so excited for you and to listen to all the stories you will tell me. I’m looking forward to every second of your adventure that I will get to be part of, and I know that we will stick together even when we’re thousands of kilometers apart. That’s what we do – it’s what we’ve always done: You hold a special place in my heart wherever I go.

I cannot wait to spend the summer at the sea with you, to go kitesurfing and see that smile on your face after you’ve reached a new goal, or laugh at your grim face after I’ve cut your way one too many times. But right now I can’t wait to give you that extra hug and tell you how proud I am to be your sister.

I love you. So much. Forever.





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