Why would you settle for anything but the extraordinary? We don’t know what happens when we die. We like to believe that we know. We like to believe that if we believe hard enough and live a good life, we go to heaven or we are reincarnated or something along the lines. We all like to believe in something. But no one really knows.
What I do know right now is that I am alive. Or that I am dreaming. Or that I am living this dream. It doesn’t really matter what is right. The fact that I wake up every morning is what matters to me; that I have woken up for the past 22 years and that – if I am lucky – I will continue waking up for many more years to come.
Why would you settle for anything but the extraordinary?
There is so much to do. So many opportunities. What do you want to do? What are you passionate about? What are your strengths? What are your weaknesses? Life never gets boring when you think about all the possibilities that you have. All the things that you can do.
Sometimes, all those opportunities are overwhelming. What to do first, where to go and with whom? I was given a little journal for my “crazy thoughts” a few days ago, and I realise now that it was exactly what I needed. I get stuck and lost and caught up in my own mind so often. I think and think and then I try to write it all down and I can’t. Because something is holding me back all of the sudden. I keep staring at the blank page in front of me – a page that is full of potential; it can be anything – everything I want it to be. And then I’m blocked. I have so many thoughts and all of the sudden I don’t know what to do with them anymore.
With this journal, the one for the crazy thoughts, it’s different though. It has been different from the beginning. The pages are smaller. Less intimidating. Less commanding.
It feels good to let go even if it’s just for a second. I know that I need to allow myself more moments like these. I don’t have to succeed at everything I do. I don’t have to be perfect. No one does – and no one is.
On most days, when I am not drowning in questions and self-doubt, I like to think of it this way: Life presents us with so many gifts every day. It is up to us to decide which ones we want to open, and when. Also with whom – because that is very important sometimes. There are only a handful of people who we really let in. But the ones that do make it past the self-protective wall that we’ve successfully built over the years are golden. They are the ones we should look forward to meeting every day.
Why would you settle for anything but the extraordinary? There are so many places to be discovered, so many experiences to be made and so many people waiting to be met.
Embrace the craziness. Go out there. Explore.
I challenge you and myself to ask questions. Question everything. Question everything until there is nothing left but your naked thoughts stripped down to the vulnerable roots of their origins. Start from there. Take a deep breath. Open your eyes and look at the world like you’ve never looked at it before. Take another breath and another one until they start to come more naturally. Focus. Close your eyes and listen. Listen to all the sounds and noises around you: the birds in the sky above your head, the traffic, the conversations of the people. Let yourself go. Be overwhelmed. Be stunned. Feel helpless and insignificant. Stay there for a moment. Now start to focus again. Separate each sound from the other. Zoom in until there is nothing left but your own heartbeat. Listen closely. Wait for it to slow down. Open your eyes and take another deep breath.
You are alive.